Nobody KnowsIt is weird at times that you tend to feel that your life is more of an open book wherein almost everyone knows every bit of who you are. Well i guess somehow this is true for me but really, they have no idea.
I was so passive today and out of sync. Things just seem so dull and blunt, its just that i feel that a big part of me is missing and there are so many things running through my head.
It was an off day today.
-Nobody knows that I'm practically one of the most insecure people on earth...
-Nobody knows that a lot of times I feel alone despite the fact that I seem happy...
-Nobody knows that I feel stupid...that i am not good enough...
-Nobody knows that I am physically ill...
-Nobody knows that it was you I was thinking of the whole day...
-Nobody knows that I have feelings for you that i have never felt for anyone before...
-Nobody knows that I am hurting right now because of what's happening between us...
-Nobody knows that I am dead serious about you even though I'm going all in w/ the first hand.
Nobody knows...
Some don't care...
Others won't believe...
So would you be the one that knows everything about me?
But I am still here facing all my fears and withstanding everything fate throws at me. Here trying to shake things off and walking it off. Like a bulldozer charging head on. Like a tattoo waiting for you.
A smile that i guess every time you make your presence felt appears on my face.
Lastly, a throbbing heart at the end of the day that beats for you...
So i guess it was a happy day after all...I guess everything will be okay...I survived the day right? And tomorrow will be a whole new day...So happy happy!? :D