Fatigue

I honestly don't know why i am so tired but yeah i just feel like doingnothing every weekend. Maybe because it is the only part of the week i can really get relaxed since every week i worry about readings and Fotocam. Oh wait let me correct myself...it is only during sundays i get some good rest because we end up still working for Fotocam during saturdays. Don't get me wrong im not whine about the work load.....im not whining period, i actually love doing what i am doing right now. But to think of all the factors that corrupt my head and all the negative outcomes that fail my expectation...who would not want to just die in the middle of the field and get all these things off his head?? Well im trying not to want that to happen.....the worries of being alone, the fact that i might fail all my freaking subjects this term, the fact that i might fall short of the expections people has for me, I better get things straight. I trying my best but a part of me still thinks taht this is not my best, and another thinks taht my best is not good enough. Fuck....ionno anymore....

Honey i also wanted to tell you that im sorry if i could not spend that much time with you anymore or talk to you on the phone in endless hours...im sorry kun minsan matamlay ako at wala ng masabi...napapagod lang siguro utak ko...promise babawi ako sayo.....I love you more than anything in this world...

Mom, im sorry if sometimes i end up answering back at you and failing you in the responsibilities you are giving me. I am happy though that for the past few weeks we have been really okay....please do remember that i love you so much and that im trying my best to be a good son and to not fail you in the future....i hope we be better....i love you and please do take care always...

To my friends....im sorry if may mga pagkukulanga ko sainyo there is just this part of me that i dont know how to deal with. Sorry kun sometimes and wierd ko o angt distant ko....siguro dala na din ng pagod. Siguro may part pa dina ko sa sarili ko na di ko kilala..... But i thank all of you for trying to be there always... i also do hope that sometime we would all gather up together and settle all our differences....becuase surely ang dami sa atin madami ilabas ang mga nasa isipan.

To you...kung alam mo langa ng sama ng loob ko sayo....but im not ready to talk about it right now. Intayin ko nalang maging sensitive enough ka para makita ang mga kinaiinisan ko sayo.....

BIKE BIKE..............!